Wednesday, November 23, 2005
Conflicts
Just had some conflicts with my mom... She said that I am a good-for-nothing. Well I don't deny that I am not a very filial son but so what? What my parents want me to do is to study! Come on how many people study during their NSF period? Why can't I be just like a normal person and enjoy my life while I can before entering university next year and have to start studying now like some nerds or freaks. I am not fond of studying! Maybe they expect too much of me. They don't know what I want and what my plan is and I don't really want to talk to them about it. She said that if next year I can study and work at the same time then I can do it and don't stay at home just stay in hostel! Oh my god! I love that idea though she said that out of sarcasm! I really want to live alone man with no one to bother me. I know people would say that I am taking my parents for granted. I don't know but I just don't want to live with them for now. Maybe when I am older and I can see things from their points of view. I am totally capable to living without people looking after me and I don't get homesick at all even when I am overseas or when I am stuck in army for a very long time. Yes and I will try my very best next year to work and study at the same time and if possible go home as little as possible, maybe just to collect things and stuff. I will study for my interest and not because I want to prove to them that I am good and to do them proud. Such ideas are stupid! Parents should not be expecting that from their children in the first place. Parents should feel proud of their children for who they are because they brought them to the world as who they are! So long as their children are not criminals or killers... I am just so unfilial to have written all these things maybe some people would say but the truth is this is how I feel and I won't try to convince others and so no one will try to change my thinking either...
I am about to go out with my friend to celebrate her birthday and I am not going to let what had just happened ruin my mood and my friend's mood... I will enjoy myself...
My mind's unweaving / 1:11 PM
